May I Go?
May I go now?
Don't you think the time is right?
May I say good-bye to pain-filled days
and endless nights?
I've lived my life and done my best,
an example tried to be,
So can I take that step beyond
and set my spirit free?
I didn't want to go at first.
I fought with all my might!
But something seems to draw me now
to a warm and loving light.
I want to go!
I really do!
It's difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can
to live just one more day. . .
To give you time to care for me
and share your love and fears.
I know you're sad and are afraid
because I see your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that,
and hope you'll always know
that my spirit will be close to you
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me.
You know I loved you too.
That's why it's hard to say good-bye
and end this life with you.
So hold me now, just one more time,
and let me hear you say,
because you care so much for me,
you'll let me go today.
I realize, being a poet who writes in traditional form, that this is not properly laid out, but I have typed it here just as it was given at the funeral. Also there are some things I know are not true or are obscure. That "something" drawing for a Christian is God in Heaven. Further down the poem says, ". . .my spirit will be close to you. . . ." This is also not true as we know that our spirit goes to Heaven or Hell after our body dies. These things aside. It was a solemn reminder to me today to be thankful for life and to love those around me while I can.